Encouragement for today

Today is Monday. I want to write something profound and meaningful. But I can’t. I’m sorry. Tomorrow I’ll be accompanying my boys to our church’s camp. My first born baby is spending the night ALL WEEK. I am so pumped for him, but oh my heavens. This is shockingly surreal. First day of kindergarten surreal. I mean I knew this day was coming. I’ve been awaiting and dreading this day for, well, ever. I’m simultaneously celebrating and grieving.

He’s so ready, and he’s going to do great. I am just not sure my heart’s ready for not having him here at home with me for a week. We are a family of six. Five just doesn’t feel right anymore. I’ve been away from him before. But Mama’s don’t you know that when you are at home and it’s bedtime you want your babies at home in their beds. Amen?

And yet I can’t wait to help him get his bunk set up and his suitcase unpacked. It will be thrilling to hear his camp stories on Friday. I can imagine him singing his heart out to Jesus, running Keen-footed with all the boys, and playing awesome night games.

I’ve only been a Mom for seven years, but I am learning this is the hard tension of motherhood. It’s always there in some permutation. It’s the tension between guilt and satisfaction, being firm or being fun, being playful or being productive.

I want to throw a Pinterest birthday party, but I only have time to pull of Chuck. E. Cheese. A stranger in the grocery store comments on the good behavior of my boys. Only minutes later, I’m squeezing the cheeks of one of those “well behaved” boys, our noses only inches apart, ┬áin a fit of nearly lethal frustration because he was blatantly disrespectful.

I think for me that’s part of the extreme exhaustion of motherhood. I am constantly trying to keep my emotions in check, balancing what’s real, reasonable and right against what’s easy, emotional and exaggerated.

Now a good blog post written by a better Mom would have a practical suggestion on how to deal. I’m not that Mom, blogger or girl. I don’t know if on a good day I’d have the answer, but certainly not on the day I’m dropping off my seven-year-old at overnight camp. So help, sweet friends. Someone want to jump down this hole with me? You don’t even have to have the answer, just keep me company or distracted-for like a week.


  1. says

    Your response to many who are socializing abot the problems with the church is right on but it seems an item may be omitted!!! It seems to me that the majority of the body of Christ bare in their infancy, still babes in Christ.

    It seems to me that many of the church leaders today are there also. They are still dominated by their senses. That is, many are well known, big men & women, in the sense realm. Sense knowledge has taken the church captive, has bound many of its leaders & holds them captive.

    It seems that very little is known of spiritual wisdom & knowledge of Him, Jesus our Redeemer!!!

    If one is conscious of the perfect redemption Jesus purchased for all from Satan’s dominion, thenevry Believer should walk with the same sureness that Jesus walked in.

    That redemption was & is an eternal redemption, not just a redemption for some time in the past. We, the body of Christ, must realize that Satan is as much defeated now (today & forever) as he was when Jesus arose from the dead and that the enemy, Satan, is as much subject to the name of Jesus as he was when Jesus conquered him. And that conquering was not for Himself, it was for us the Believer who refuse to remain babes in Christ.

    Col. 1:9-12 “That we may be filled with the exact knowledge of His will in all spiritual wsdom & understanding.” That is what belongs to the church, but the church will not arrive there until the written Word becomes first place in one’s life. For His Word is life to those who find it & health to ALL their flesh. “For this purpose was Jesus manifest, “tomdestroy the works of the devil.” Everything falls under th is umbrella. The last words of Jesus are found in Mark 16:15-18 Jesus was talking to His disciples and told them “Go ye into all the world, and preach the gospel to every creature. vs 16 “He that believeth and is baptized shall be saved, but he that believeth not shall damned, vs 17 And these signs SHALL follow them that believe; In my name they shall cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues; They shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing , it shall not hurt them; THEY SHALL LAY HANDS ON THE SICK AND THEY SHALL RECOVER’. These 5 things above are exactly what the Church & every Believer should be dloing, this includes Church leaders. Everything else it seems is happening in the Church except that which is a command from Jesus Himself.
    Things to thin k about!!! Dave

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